LTWYL

I feel like I should write something but I'm pretty dreary so not sure on what or how exactly. But I'm pretty hopped up on Coke, so let's go. I'm kinda back to the sleeping pattern I was in at Uni, although there I used to wake up late, whereas here, I'm having too many early mornings. I kinda like the feeling of feeling tired, something peaceful about it, it's not the worst feeling in the world. Talking of University, I realised today that I've been home for a while now and I kind of miss being away. I just want to go up to people and give 'em a hug. I'm really looking forward to moving into the house next year. It's exciting and something different, the sort of change I want but normally to afraid to make. A Jeff Buckley quote springs to mind "I want to throw myself against the rocks" just to see what happens. Another quote that I came across recently and really liked was "I would cling to unhappiness because it was a known, familiar state. When I was happier, it was because I knew I was on my way back to misery". I sometimes feel like I can relate to that but then realised maybe I'm not that misanthropic (also a word I came across and liked).

On the subject of misery, I've been watching a lot of films recently and the other day was looking for something sad. After watching 10 Things I Hate About You and Remember Me (both of which I really liked) it dawned on me that there's a difference between a sad film and a film that makes you sad. Remember Me on paper is technically a sad movie, but it's beautifully done and the shock twist ending, although sad, leaves you happy because it's a deserved ending to a good film. On the other hand, 10 Things I Hate About You is just another one of those slightly cheesy teen movies, which don't get me wrong I liked, but a geeky Joseph Gordon-Levitt gets the cool, popular girl, and an impossibly beautiful Heath Ledger is always going to get the girl, who could resist, and everyone rides off into the sunset, perfect and happy. This for some reason actually made me feel quite down, maybe it's just me.

Just when I thought I had enough of Julia Styles fuckin' me around, she's been cast in the new series of Dexter. Also, I've watched a few 'Inside The Actors Studio' interviews, which are pretty good, and the one with Mickey Rourke is so emotional, I feel like crying every time I hear him speak, what a man. And because I've been talking a lot about movies of late, I'm going to provide some music for you that I've been in to for a while. Bit of a varied bunch, make of it what you will;

White Blank Page - Mumford & Sons
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I_Od0PJp6GI

Forget Her - Jeff Buckley
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66cOdIRsSho&feature=avmsc2

Going Through Changes - Eminem
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iLq_oSkHZic&feature=player_embedded

Tumhein Dillagi Bhool - Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NpytgCbGJ4k

Still don't know how to actually add songs on to here but I found you the best vids out there so take a fucking minute to listen to 'em! :)

Thoughts/Quotes/Lyrics of the Day...
"Paul, did you just punch a little child?"
"There are thing you don't know about me Jimmy, I'd fuck a little kid up if he kick me in the dick!"

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