She has been so patient with me, even though I've pushed her aside. Hours, days, or weeks; she's always there no matter how long it's been since our last date. She listens to everything I have to say without judgement, I don't have to be the best or most beautiful, I'm allowed to be myself. Ahh I love my blog.
It has been a mad first week back at University, lot's of good little things, one big bad thing. The house is OK for student living really, it's got walls and a roof, can't really complain, it is what you make it. I've already had to break into it once! We're waiting for the Internet to get installed so for the time being we're using pre-payed dongles, which are pretty shit; they take loads of memory to watch TV shows and you can't get Facebook chat on them, proper gay like. I've also lost my phone charger, so have been without the services of my phone for the majority of the week. However, today we did get Sky TV sorted, which is always good. I went out all three nights last week, Liquid, Norma's, and Steam, each one being better than the previous night. Steam I was dressed in a pink tutu and leg warmers, but no pictures were taken, so think I dodged a bullet on that one.
I have ended up having an awesome timetable this year for once, I only have to be in on Thursdays and Fridays. The slight down side to this is that I might not get to see everyone as much as I would like, but I'm sure we'll make it work. The one thing I'm really excited about this year is the boxing club. Last year I was just kind of Andi's friend that came along, whereas, this year already I'm one of the group which is cool. I helped out on fresher fair and something like a 150 signed up for boxing (including the most beautiful girl I think I've seen in my life), and 50 odd people turned up today for the first session. It's nice seeing new faces and meeting new people while still being in the comfortable surrounding of your friends. I've also bought that denim jacket that I've wanted for ages and now I never want to take it off.
The one major setback is that not even a week in and Mike has left the house and university for good. It sucks that he's gone but what makes it worse is the way he left, just disappearing off the face of the planet with no one knowing what's going on. I think I've turned cold hearted, it's not bothered me as much as I thought it would have. I always think, one day I'm going to wake up and all these friends I have and people that like me, has all a dream and I'll go back to being alone again. Once you happily accept that, nothing can really disappoint you.
Thought/Quote/Lyric of the Day...
But now we speak with ruined tongues
And the words we say aren't meant for anyone
It's just a mumbled sentence to
A passing acquaintance.
But there was once you,
You said you hate my suffering, and you understood,
And you'd take care of me.
You'd always be there.
Well, where are you now?
And I sing and sing of awful things
The pleasure that my sadness brings
As my fingers press onto the strings,
Yet another clumsy chord.
But I talk in the mirror
To the stranger that appears
Our conversations are circles
Always one sided, nothing is clear.
Except we keep coming back
To this meaning that I lack.
He says the choices were given
And now, you must live them
Or just not live,
But do you want that?
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